শনিবার, ২২ জানুয়ারী, ২০১১

All my life I have lived almost a "perfect moral life" and it made me feel so good about myself.In my country where smoking cigarette , drinking alcohol is considered a very bad thing & even in family from my childhood it had been taught that these things are bad, like really bad and almost like crimes.I maintained all these boundaries and lived my life. However, I suddenly feel a radical change in my mentality.I feel so much locked. It feels like I have bound myself in so many rules that even I can't take it any more. Not only these things but also I don't fight or quarrel with any one and that is why expects so much from me and I can't take it anymore. I cannot live like this anymore, I feel like I need to let go off these rules every once in a while cause handling these tremendous pressure is not possible for me anymore and what seemed like enethical and sinful to me doesn't really matter to anyone not even myself. Being a good person all the time is just too boring and worthless to me now so I feel like "YESSS, I can be a good person even if I break the so called illogical social boundaries ". At the end of the day what matters is if i have caused anyone any harm or not, but if I dont do that and just to break free of my boring routined life then I don't think its bad to drink or smoke or anything......but its just my thoughts.............